Strength Is The Product Of Struggle

This mornings training -
8km jog
1 round shadow boxing
1 round fast punching on the bag
5 rounds heavy bag
3 rounds grappling
3 sets shoulder press (max)

This afternoons training -
2km sprint
2 rounds boxing shadow boxing
3 rounds boxing sparring

Sigh...where do I start. I got absolutely hammered this afternoon. When I woke up for training this afternoon this little voice in my head was saying "sparring...sparring". In case you don't remember or are new to this blog I hate boxing sparring, absolutely fucking hate it. But after the last sparring with Paul I felt confident and good. Clearly I shouldn't have.

We changed opponents every round, so for the first two rounds I was against two different Japanese fighters. They are not so good with muay thai but their boxing is excellent. However, last time I sparred the trainer said "no power" which suited me fine because my technique needs a lot of work. However this time I'm certain the two Japanese guys were deliberately trying to knock me out and hit me hard with every shot. Even when I collided with the other guys who were sparring and tried to move out of the way with my hands down, the Japanese guy just kept pummling me. End of the round and I was glad to change opponents but the other Japanese guy was no better.

I'm not mad at either of them, as Paul says, "If you're going to take a shower you're going to get wet" and clearly I should have been better prepared mentally than I was. But to be honest, after training here for over two months, my muay thai is excellent on the pads and if I ever have to fight a thai pad I'll win no contest, but when it comes to actual fighting I haven't learned a goddamn thing. I feel incredibly disheartened but lucky not to have gotten my nose or jaw broken, some of the shots were honestly that hard. I want to quit right now, pack up, go back to australia and back to my shitty fucking life that I hated. Motivational quotes are great but not when you're just gotten smashed badly. I have absolutely no faith in myself anymore. Fuck everything.



This weekend big weekend for muay thai in Thailand...

CELEBRATION NAIKHANOM TOM DAY ASSOCIATION INSTITUTE OF THAI MARTIAL ARTS & WORLD MUAYTHAI FEDERATION

Wai-Kru Ceremony Muay Boran & Krabi – Krabong Seminar
Nai Khanomtom Pro/Championships Belt

Date: 15th - 17th March 2009

Venue: City of Ayutthaya Stadium, Ayutthaya, Thailand

Programs
Sunday 15th March 2009
07.00 - 16.00 hr. Seminar of Muay Boran Courses & Krabi Krabong
08.00 - 16.00 hr. Competition of Amateur Muay Thai, Muay Thai Boran and Krabi Krabong
17.30 hr. Introduction to all the Grand Masters and Masters all Ranking of Kru. Oats of respect to all teachers. Present Mongkon and blessing to the new comers. The Fighter for Muaythai ready for the start.
19.30 hr. Welcome Party Monday

16th March 2009
07.00 - 16.00 hr. Seminar of Muay Boran & Krabi Krabong Courses
08.00 - 16.00 hr. Competition of Mae Mai Muay Thai, Amateur Muay Thai, Muay Thai Boran and Krabi Krabong (Semi-Finals)
10.00 - 16.00 hr. Local Thai Sports Show…Muay Thai Boran, Muay Tabchak and fighting cock
19.00 - 20.00 hr. Competition of Aerobic Muay Thai

Tuesday 17th March 2009 "WORLD MUAYTHAI DAY (NAI KHANOMTOM DAY)"
07.00 hr. For anyone must go to pay respect and holy
10.00 - 15.00 hr. Ceremony at Nai Khanomtom statue. President arrival at the statue Start of the Holy CeremonyThe final 3 bout of Amateur, Final Muay Boran, demonstration Presentation of Wai Kru, Mae Mai & Amateur Medals And Special Nai Khanomtom Amateur Local Thai Sports Show… Muay Thai Boran, Muay Tabchak and fighting cock (stop giggling)
10.00 - 16.00 hr. Closing Ceremony


For More Information : www.ideabar.com/muaythai